Sunday 22 May 2011

无助

无助
很讨厌的两个字!
这两个字让我觉得
我,是个没有用的人!
我,是个无能的人!

在我无助的时候
我都知道
翻开电话簿
没有人能帮得了你
除了你自己那份毅力

为什么总是爱什么东西都自己做?
就是不希望依赖任何人
不希望自己是个没用的人
什么都靠别人
不希望当你每次有事情的时候都要别人来帮

难道女生真的不能靠自己吗?
谁说?!!

Saturday 21 May 2011

我就是我!

我就是我,脾气硬,不心软
我就是我,只要我不喜欢做的事,没有人可以逼得了我
我就是我,没有人可以控制着我,不管你是谁
我就是我,有话直说,你管我
我就是我,我就是粗鲁,接受不到?那滚开
我就是我,人不犯我,我不犯人,这是我的原则
我就是我,你做错了,不需要道歉,如果我相信,我不会需要你的解释,如果我不相信,我不会听
我就是我,只要你惹我一次,我就会记住你一世
我就是我,你相信我,不需要我去解释,不相信我的人,我更加不会去解释
我就是我,只要我心甘情愿的,我就会做
我就是我,我要做什么就什么,不需要你的批准
我就是我,心情不好,别惹我
我就是我,你回我O,我给回你oOo
我就是我,我叫美秋,不是喂,不是oi,不是woi!!

不管多了多少年,我还是我


Friday 20 May 2011

smile =)

anyone can make you smile or cry,but it takes someone special to make you smile when you already have tears in your eyes
you smile ,i smile =)

Monday 16 May 2011

没有女孩子愿意一直坚强

人人都说女孩子不要太要强、太独立、太厉害,不然会不招人喜欢
可是,我若不要强、不独立、不变厉害,谁会在我最无助的时候伸出援手?
靠山山会倒,靠人人会跑。
女孩子,只有自己强大了,才不会被别人当做附属品。
家世好的女孩子,会有爸妈为其铺好华丽丽的金砖大道,
相貌好的女孩子,会有男友老公等着为其鞍前马后尽献殷勤,
运气好的女孩子,会有贵人相助使之平步青云,
真是,不幸,我似乎哪个都排不上,
所以,别再问我为什么总是那么不解风情,
别再埋怨我没有一点女孩子的娇柔体贴,
别再说我笑得太大声,走得太快,讲话太男孩子气。
别再嫌弃我太过理智,太冷血。
因为,我知道,
下雨天如果忘带伞,就一定会淋雨,
淋雨之后,不赶快擦干头发,换掉衣服,
就一定会感冒发烧,
生病之后,不赶快看医生吃药就会越病越厉害。
曾经去输液,隔床的女孩一边给老师打电话请假,一边哭,
我当时觉得,这孩子真傻,哭又能怎样?
真是个傻孩子。
可我也曾是个傻孩子。
曾经我会在躲雨的屋檐下看着一个个被接走的人觉得自己像是个弃猫,
曾经我会在饿的胃疼却连水都没得喝的时候很想哭,
曾经我会在拥挤的公车上被人左推右推的时候感到委屈,
曾经我在夜色里默默对自己说“生日快乐”
曾经我在被冤枉却无力辩解时躲在厕所捂着嘴巴大声地压抑着哭。
我不是苦水里泡大的孩子,我只是个不愿意向世俗妥协的女孩。
而在此之前,我会一直努力坚强着,扬起下巴,不哭,不闹,不发脾气。只微笑。
没有女孩子愿意一直坚强,只是她在等一个理由,一个可以不强迫自己坚强的理由


这并不是我写的文章,但却玩却把我所有的心声都带出来~

Wednesday 11 May 2011

最重要的决定

姐妹,他,绝对是除了你老爸之外,第二个最爱你最爱的男人,如果他很爱你,对你很好,他向你求婚,那你就答应吧!嘻嘻~虽然我一直都不是很赞同早结婚,但只要你找到对的人,遇上队的时间,那就别再想那么多了!不管你做什么决定,只要是你自己喜欢的,我一定会支持你的!=)



我願意一生愛妳、照顧妳、保護妳...
在你傷心難過時、體諒妳、安慰妳...在妳生病痛苦時、陪伴妳、扶侍妳...
在妳成功得意、肯定妳、提醒妳...在妳失敗挫折時、支持妳、鼓勵妳.....
讓我照顧妳,我真的好愛妳...

这是黑人对范范在众人面前许下的承诺,
黑人与范范也是让我身边多半的女性朋友羡慕不已的一对情人,
好男人,可是可遇不可求的~
當一個男人穿上白色的西裝, 一個女人穿上白色的婚禮裙
一起踏入禮堂,,,那是最幸福的一件事情
因為這愛情是靠著他們的雙手經營出來的結果
因為幸福沒有捷徑 只有經營

Sunday 8 May 2011

my sIstA =)


jie mei men,i miss you girls so muchie!(although we last last week only had our gathering XD)
hurm...when i saw back our photos,i realised that we all really grow up a lot,become mature already =)
actually also don't know what to write,just very miss the old times,we 38 together,we crazy together ,we gossip together and bla bla bla........seriously,i really hope that we all also can attend our ji mui trip on 18th of june 2011,but too bad,fiona need to meeting that day..='(....hurm hurm hurmmmm..really don't know what to write ,just wanna tell you girls,i miss u all alot and this song for you girls <3 [count on me]

~you can count on me like 1 2 3,i'll be there~
~and i know when i need it i can count on you like 4 3 2, and you'll be there~
~cause that's what friends are supposed to do,oh yeah~
=)

Friday 6 May 2011

tOuGh

a song represent a story..
hmm..why i post this mv?don't know..it's meaningful to me?hmm..not at all..


"if u wanna cry,cry on my shoulder,if u need someone who cares for u"


seriously,i hope there's someone can tell me this right now..
borrow me your shoulder,give me a tissue..


i'm not suddenly emo,is there's damn much things happened!sometimes just wish to leave here,and never come back anymore,but i can't..sometimes be tough too long,you will know that,that's really really really damn TIRED!sometimes i also wondering why i wanna act tough,act strong,act independent..maybe is don't want depends to anyone?i don't know,and no one can give me the answer of this question..i'm not a very optimistic girl,but i also less crying in front of others,except the people that i trust..but i really hope that can cry 99 right now!i know after i cry the problem will still there..but at least the suffer feeling will reduce half from my heart...='(

be tough ain't a bad thing,but once you and others used to it,you will found that,once you cry,people will think that you're weak..
wanna be a superwoman must learn to be tough?i'm still learning...

Thursday 5 May 2011

whAt dO yOu wAnt frOm mE??

can i open your brain ,n c what's on your mind?
can i be the worm inside your stomach,and know what you want?
Sometimes I wanna give up, then you find me. 
And my feelings are come back 

Tuesday 3 May 2011

"朋友"

朋友的定义是什么?
朋友=兄弟姐妹?
朋友=有福同享,有难同当?
朋友=互相忍让?互相迁就?
朋友=上刀山,落油锅?
朋友=叫你做什么就一定要做?!!

我当你是朋友所以我也把你当成我的姐妹。
我当你是朋友所以我觉得开心的事我会和你分享,你不开心我可以借你我的肩膀。
我当你是朋友所以我觉得我可以忍忍你的臭脾气,可以迁就你的坏习惯。
我当你是朋友所以我觉得你有困难时,我不能担保一定可以帮你解决,但会尽我全力去帮。
我当你是朋友所以我不会逼你做你不喜欢做的东西,因为这叫尊重

朋友,我懂得尊重你,但也请你也想想别人的感受,尊重下别人!
每当别人好声好气的问你问题,跟你说话,也请你别用你的大便态度去回答别人!
如果别人将对你,你会怎样?用下你的死人脑想清楚!
如果我不想做那件事,我会跟你说我不要,而且谁也逼不到我,我身边的朋友都知道我的脾气,没有人可以逼得了我,你也不例外!

每个人的容忍度都有限,我会忍你第一次,我会认你第二次,但请不要挑战我的第三次!
我自认自己是个记仇的人,你惹我一次,我就会记住你一世!

Sunday 1 May 2011

sOmEtImEs whEn wE tOuch

you ask me if i love you
and i choke on my reply
i'd rather hurt you honestly
than mislead you with a lie
for who am i to judge you
in what you say or do
i'm only just beginning
to see the real you
and sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and i have to close my eyes
and hide
i wanna told you till i die
till we both break down and cry
i wanna hold you till the fear in my subsides
romance's an honest strategy
leaves me grappling with my pride
but through the years of maturity
some tenderness survives
i'm just another writer
still trapped within my truth
a hesitant prize-fighter
still trapped within my youth
and sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and i have to close my eyes
and hide
i wanna hold you till i die
till we both break down and cry
i wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
at times i'd like to break you
and drive you to your knees
at times i'd like to break through
and hold you endlessly
at times i understand you
and i know you how hard you try
i've watched while love commands you
and i've watched love pass you by
at times i think we're drifters
still searching for a friend
a brother or a sister
but then the passion flares again
and sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and i have to close my eyes
and hide
i wanna hold you till i die
till we both break down and cry
i wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides


Friday 29 April 2011

two is better than one?wonder

many peoples like to ask me


"u got boyfriend?"
"no la." (smile)
"impossible ba??!!" (with a shock face)


ladies and gentleman,tuan-tuan dan puan puan,you're so funny la, i answered your question already,then you give me the respond like this..=..=


in fact,it's true
not no people chase,but no suitable
not look high,but there is no feeling
maybe sometimes want to love,no longer let myself be lonely,
hope there's someone sayang me,but don't have the people,and i do not want to casually love
I'm not looking for a prince, 
just for someone who treats me like a princess.

Thursday 28 April 2011

genting view

arghhhh!!!!!!


actually I'm still consider wanna go for the 2 days 1 night camp or not~It's so scary man!!!!
this is a ghost place!-GENTING VIEW!!!


every time go there for camp sure will have many ghost story to hear...


toilet,car park,hall,2 people become 3 people....


oh gosh!!!kill me please...=((


i like to watch scary movie but i don't hope that it will happen on me!And this coming camp only have me one girl,so who can accompany me to bath wo....><


my dear friends,thx you guys' ghost story la!!!
the lobby of the resort(so scary)
the car park(they said wanna do some section at there,OH NO !!!)

Tuesday 26 April 2011

拥有

有些失去是注定的,有些缘分是永远不会有结果的。
爱一个人不一定就能拥有,可、就是抹不去你在我心中留下的点点滴滴。
原来我不是你那颗糖,所以渗透不进你的心里;
原来你不是我那杯茶,所以融化不了我的感情。

Saturday 23 April 2011

IMY

i thought i can forget
somehow,i miss you again~
how are you?

Wednesday 20 April 2011

mY haiR stoRy

suddenly ass itchy and think wanna blog about my hair,and found that i'm so 'fan jian' xD




sohem short hair during secondary sch ><
after form 5 graduate @@
when i'm study in college-straight hair
my curly hair xD
half short hair
current hairstyle, love this so much~<3

what's next??hmm,boyhair???wanna try try...hehe~

Saturday 16 April 2011

友达以上,恋人未满

   如果有一天,你走进我心里,你会哭,因为里面装满的都是你,
  如果有一天,我走近你心里,我会哭,因为里面找不到我的身影。


终于,终于,告一段落了。
我没有不开心,也没有特别心痛的感觉,真的,你不需要去猜测。。 
在你还没讯息我之前,我早已把‘它’忘得七七八八了。
但也好,你讯息告诉了我你的感觉,让我觉得,这件事并不会影响我们的友情。。=)


在每个人的人生里,总会有很多过客,
也感谢你,为我的人生添上了一个小插曲。。


女孩,幸福没有的勉强,
是你的,你放他走了,他还是会回来
不是你的,你绑得了他的人,也绑不住他的。。。

Monday 11 April 2011

他,走了

原本告诉自己要考完试才上网,但一直温习功课,就一直都想到‘他’。

2011年4月7号,凌晨4点多,‘他’,走了。。。。外公,走了。。。。

认识了差不多二十年的外公走了。。

原本妈告诉我“girl啊,考完试就回家看外公,外公最近都很不舒服,而且还进医院了。” 当时的我还心想,快快考完试,熬过了就可以回去看外公了,但没想到,才考第二科就收到弟弟的讯息说‘阿公走了’。当时我真的不懂该如何,整个人就看着电话呆了。

从第二天的‘打斋’到最后一天的‘安位’,心情一直都很沉重,根本没心情拿起书来读。

平时都不太爱和外公说话的弟弟告诉我 “我真的接收不到外公的离去,太突然了” 

平时都很嘴硬的舅舅在那几天简直和‘泪人’没什么两样。

大家对着外公的棺木喊“阿爸,阿公,阿爷,您安心上路"的那一个画面,真地看了都觉得很心痛心酸!!  

但很搞不清楚的是,丧礼是一个很严肃的仪式,为何那些三姑六婆来‘坐夜’好像来巴刹买菜聚会一样,对死者与死者家属一点也不尊重!


脑里想到很多东西来写,但,根本是以言语无法表达得出。

只想说,外公,您安息,安心上路吧~


    如果这世界上每个人都可以在同一天死,不需要受尽生死离别,那该多好。



Monday 4 April 2011

pRay haRd!!!

Oh damn!!Just get a bad news! My grandpa just admitted hospital.Hope he'll be alright!!!He still want to see his granddaughter's full moon.The big family still need a elder to support,so GOD bless!!I still wanna go back visit him when i finish my final exam,so grandpa,u must be strong!!!


                                               Close my eyes and PRAY


Tommorow is my 1st paper for my final exam.Feel damn stress because i got a worst result last sem,so this sem must chase back everything and i wanna graduate on this september!If this sem all PASS,i will do something crazy.LOL!I hope I really can do it. 
DO MY BEST,NO EXCUSE!

Sunday 3 April 2011

YOU and m3

'who are you?'
"I'm xxx,your love's one a"
'who o?
"xxx,your Darling'


Darling,is a word that I used to call my boyfriend. But when u told me that,make me really ,argh...............@@but it's sweet <3


"why u don't want choose gold,why choose orange?"
'coz gold won't last long geh only for one day,orange last very long'


Orange,the secret between us.


BURLESQUE,the movie i really hope that can watch with you,but...................................BIG SIGH!!


Sseriously,i really can't catch your mind!or just maybe i think too much between us?or we're really just 'FRIEND'??i don't know! What i asked u through msn is real,but i din't get any conclusion from you! I enjoy every moment when chit chat with you,very simple,but sweet for me. But your attitude really make me speechless, I hate people treat me sometimes warm n sometimes cold,it's so disgusting!But i still so 'fan jian', still wanna find you.><


"I love the three things in this world,the sun of them day,the moon of the night,and you forever",the love quote i most like from you.


         If there's another chance for me,i will hug u tightly and will never let you go.I miss your perfume too,
                                                        
Lucky by glee,the song you intro to me.